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Falling up..
Rising down..
The pain felt
is more than profound.

Screaming out...
Breathing in..
I must catch my breath...

Whichever way must I go?
This I ask..
but I already know..............

So I go......
but not
with the flow.

I fight this current...
these wretched waves..
which enslave me...
and all I gave...

Screaming out..
Breathing in..
I must catch my breath..

So I see..
what it is
that I need to be..

Ripping..
tearing..
Beating..
Overtaking..
my physical...

I must continue..
My soul must go on...
For I am not...
Some worldly pawn.

It is coming..
White Light..
I see it..feel it..
I no longer fight..

For now..

I understand..

my direction..

my purpose..

I embrace the sudden warmth..
The sense of belong.
.and wonder..
how could I have been so wrong..

To know that
that in which held me down
Was no stranger..
but that in which
my mind found..

Rising up..
Falling down..
This beauty discovered
is quite profound..